I'm not sure some times that there is any one out there in the whole entire world that understands me or that is like me. Okay there are some, but not many.
There is just some thing I understand or get on a level most people can't see or understand. I can't even put it into words. I'm sure it comes from my past suffering. Suffering changed me. Suffering changes people.
I must tell you that some people may not think it was for the best thing for me (or for you) , but I do - now. None-the-less it's who I am now. I can't go back to the naive young girl I used to be.
Suffering gives you strength. It makes you so strong.
These days I hear so many people complain. I hear so many negative people. I hear oppositional people. People who don't follow their promises.
And the excuses. You could write a book.
Why did my suffering change me into some one who changed and won't give up - yet others who suffer continue to spiral down?
Is it personality? It is heredity? What?
They say when you go through things it makes you have more empathy for others in the same situation. Maybe it does, but IF THAT PERSON CHOOSES TO KEEP ON BEING THE SAME WAY - WITHOUT CHANGING - my sympathy is gone. I must admit I feel angry. I want to distance myself from these kind of people.
Sometimes you can't I know - but you sure the heck can take vacations from them. Physically or mentally.
I read about Audre Lorde in Daily Celebrations. She is like me. I don't know her, but I know her.
"When I dare to be powerful, to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid." ~ Audre Lorde
She fought breast cancer for 14 years and wrote in the Cancer Journals about her radical mastectomy and the experiences she went through. She had hope and hopelessness at the same time. Her fears were actually her inspiration.
"Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of your arm. As you grow older you will discover that you have two hands. One for helping yourself, the other for helping others." You can only help the people who want to be helped (Chatty).
For Heaven's sake - we need tp do something positive - ourself - to change our own life!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Believe me IT IS POSSIBLE. I've have to do it many, many times. I have had a lot of negative things happen in my life, but I'LL BE DARNED if I'm going to let them win over me!
A Venting Chatty Crone.