"Life is lived forward, but understood backward. It is not until we are down the road and we stand on the mountain looking back through the valley that we can appreciate the terrain God has allowed us to scale.” Jill Savage

Saturday, August 01, 2009

Eagles and breathing . . .

"The Peace of Wild Things" by Wendell Berry found on Chet Day's website.

When despair for the world grows in me and I wake in the night at the least sound in fear of what my life and my children's lives may be,

I go and lie down where the wood drake rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things who do not tax their lives with forethought of grief. I come into the presence of still water.

And I feel above me the day-blind stars waiting with their light. For a time I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.

The eagle is not endangered anymore. They are alive and well in Alaska. I saw them everywhere. I thought they were beautiful. Strong and mighty. Free. Determined looking. Stately. Apparently they are not thought of that highly there - they are more thought of as a scavenger bird as they break into the garbage cans, etc. In fact small dogs beware - the eagles will come down and swoop them up (no kidding). The funny thing is - they don't know they are not well liked so there self-esteem has not been affected what-so-ever! They still think they are regal and stately.

(In Homer which I will get to later - there was a house - who used to belong to Jean Keene - she was known as the Eagle Lady - and when the eagles came over head - she used to feed them, nurse them, and bring them into Homer. I hear the people weren't to happy with her at first. )

Now a problem I'm experiencing is now that I have had this new experience - quite unlike any other I've ever had - now that I've experienced - it it's hard to go back to life as it once was. (I mean once you let a kid drive - can you take the car away?)

Learning to love Alaska, it's peacefulness, joy, beauty, knowledge, learning that being open to receive is much better than being closed off to deny, risk taking, happiness, excitement, blissful sleep, breathing, trying new things like gelato, talking to people, making friends, seeing new things, feeling happy, and for some reason I felt so safe there - anyway it has left me with a hole in my heart - an emptiness. I mean once you've experienced all that (having never had experienced that before) how does one come back and continue their life as normal? (Pain equals growth.) I wonder if the discomfort will go away? I ache. Once you've had a taste of a different life how can you life ever be the same again? I don't want it to be the same again. How do you go forward? What if when you come back not everyone is as joyful as you are about finding these new things for yourself? A lot to deal with I'll tell you, but let's more on through one lady's journal to the final frontier.

Just remember this secret - don't listen to what others tell you about you - decide for yourself your own self worth and sense self esteem. Remember down deep in your soul that it is a choice.

Be free and breathe like the eagle today and soar . . .


PS. Do you know what a fainting goat is? And if your name is ClassyChassy you can't answer - you already know what it is.

PSS. Bet you thought I forgot to give you the answer from yesterday's riddle (well I almost did).

If you take off the beginning letter, and take the rest of the word and write it backward - then add the beginning letter on - it is the same word.


what is left - anana
reverse it - anana
add the b - banana

I didn't get it either, but thought it was fun.


^..^Corgidogmama said...

A very thoughtful post today.
Lots of good, deep thinking going on inside your head since you got back home.

Olde Dame Penniwig said...

Sometimes a person finds the place they need to be, and they move there. It's a physical place, sometimes, and others times, it's a mental place. Life passes quickly -- it's a quick trip through -- no returns -- too short to mess around in a place just existing, or existing for others, while there's a place where the person can be WHOLE instead of have a HOLE in their heart!!!

[Now to take my own advice...!!!]