Do you know what I mean by God's waiting room? Have you ever been there? It's just like being at the doctors waiting room - you sign in (or say your prayers) and then you wait and wait and wait. And sometimes you just know people who came in after you had been called already. You even go up and ask why - and there is always some excuse why they got to go first.
You pray for an answer or something you think you need and you sit there. And you sit there and you sit there. And you keep praying - over and over and over again.
It is like grief - you first start in denial - no He hasn't missed me...
Anger - Why haven't You called me?
Bargain - okay God if I do this then will You do that? I've been good and I've been faithful.
Depression and tears can come - pleading. Surely You don't want this for me.
Then they say you then get to acceptance. I think at times I've reached it - then wham - all of a sudden I realize I'm starting all over.
Maybe He's saying no - but I haven't heard it that loud yet.
I am in God's waiting room now - and have been a long time over something. Moses was in God's waiting room 40 years! When my parents divorced and my father remarried and had other children I waited for an answer why - and it took me 25 to 30 years to realize it was so I wouldn't be alone after they died - I have a beautiful sister who is one of the best friends I have. I know eventually there will be answer someday - I wish it was sooner then later - I'm tired of waiting.
Have you ever been there? Have you been to God's waiting room?